I will try to fix you.

Breakups are the most horrible thing. Worse than clowns, and Halloween, and cockroaches. Worse than migraines and nightmares.Why can't I stop checking your twitter and facebook? Why can't I stop looking at my phone, praying you'll call or text me. I think what hurts the most is I didn't just lose the love of my life, but I lost my best friend. I feel so lost now. I feel so alone. I don't even really know how to function without you in my life anymore.So what do I do now? How do I pick myself up? How do I let go and move on? Someone, please tell me.

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I talked to a friend today. Someone I haven't talked to in almost a year. And even though I'm terribly sad about my break-up, I applied for an internship abroad, and if I get accepted, I would get to see my friend for 6 months. I don't know why, but I just know that even if I don't get accepted into the program, I will still go see him. If you never try, you'll never know.And I have to know if he could ever be the one to fix me.