Wait, I have a blog?

My apologies for not posting for a while. I feel more like I've neglected myself more than anyone who reads my lovely thoughts. But what a perfect time to explore my thoughts on social media and how much it affects our lives.I expected to be writing at least every other day, but don't you just hate it when life gets in the way of the things you want to do? What puzzles me is why it's so easy for me to sit on Facebook and just refresh my newsfeed for an hour, but I can't take five minutes and write out a blog post.Why is the world like that? We are such an instant gratification society that we can't even stop to focus our energies on something we have held ourselves accountable for? Now, in this specific moment, I am referring to my own accountability for maintaining this blog. I find myself all too often starting something whole-heartedly with full intention and purpose, and yet here I am: catching up again. I know I'm not alone in my shortcomings, but I do take pride in when I really truly want something, I will stop it nothing to do my best at it. Maybe I just don't want this blog enough...maybe I just need to truly want collect my thoughts here.But I thought I did??Isn't that why I started this in the first place? Because I wanted a place to gather my thoughts? so then the question is not simply wanting something. So what does it mean to truly want something?Well, I know two things. I truly want my soldier to be home cuddling with me right now, and I truly want to sleep all day tomorrow.